I read this, this week and found it so encouraging. During seasons of intense trial it’s easy to wonder why. Why would God allow all this to happen to me. What have I done wrong? Why so much all at once? Is this really the only way to work out my sanctification? I know all is for my good, but sometimes it’s hard to see the good when you’re in the midst of the difficult. I’m so grateful for friends, Scripture, the Holy Spirit, and dead writers…all reminding me that there’s more to our trials than what we can see! He NEVER gives us more than we can bear. He is ALWAYS FAITHFUL! And there is always a reason…
Some of you are called to suffer in your minds, not because of any wrong but for the sake of others. Some years ago, I preached a sermon from the text, “My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?” (Mark 15:34). I preached my own cry. I felt an agony of spirit. I was under an awful sense of being forsaken by God, and I could not understand why I was surrounded by such thick darkness. I wanted to clear myself if any sin remained in me, but I could not discover any evil that I was tolerating.
When I went back into the vestry, I learned the secret of my personal distress. There was an elderly man in a horror of great darkness. He said, “I have never met any person who has been where I am. I trust there is hope.” I asked him to sit down, and we talked. I hope I conducted him from the verge of insanity to the open healthy place of peace through believing. I could never have helped if I had not been in the miry clay myself. Then I understood why I felt like one forsaken. The Lord was leading me to where I would be taught to know this man, to where I would be willing to sit with him in the dark prison-house and lend him a hand to escape.
In presenting myself to my Lord for service since then, I have said to Him, “Make me useful to the douting and depressed. I do not bargain for comfort, peace, or joy if I can be more helpful to Your poor, weary children without them. Place me where I can best answer Your purpose by being made to sympathize with Your troubled people. I only want to bring them to heaven, to the praise of the glory of Your grace. As for me, let me rejoice or suffer as best suits their case.”
For this you must have faith in God and be sure that your trials will have great compensation. –C.H. Spurgeon
“We may wait till He explains,
Because we know that Jesus reigns.
It puzzles me; but, Lord, Thou understandest,
And wilt one day explain this crooked thing.
Meanwhile, I know that it has worked out Thy best–Its very crookedness taught me to cling.
Thou hast fenced up my ways, made my paths crooked,
To keep my wand’ring eyes fixed on Thee;
To make me what I was not, humble, patient;
To draw my heart from earthly love to Thee.
So I will thank and praise Thee for this puzzle,
And trust where I cannot understand.
Rejoicing Thou dost hold me worth such testing,
I cling the closer to Thy guiding hand."
-Streams In The Dessert